No Barbells, Please…

Posted Elizabeth Miller Deep Thoughts

I started recreationally doing CrossFit my last semester in college (2012) when my brother opened his gym. I was 40 pounds overweight and all I really wanted was a hot bod, so I gave CrossFit a shot (if that’s what you want to call it). I’d go to about one or two classes a month (yes, a month) and felt like one CrossFit workout was enough to last me the whole year. I bragged about how fit I was on social media because I legitimately thought I was KILLING it – #FitFam!

I remember ONLY going to classes on the days that we didn’t use barbells, mainly because I was afraid and also because I didn’t think it would get me in the shape I wanted to be in fast enough. I felt like logging my workouts was such a chore and so pointless, so rarely did I ever log my workouts either. This went on for 3 years. 3 long years of me thinking that I wanted to be better, but not willing to make any sort of changes to be better.

(pictured below is the most weight lifting I did. An overhead squat with a PVC and a 5lb plate)


At the end of 2015, I had finally hit my breaking point. I told myself that 2016 was going to be a year that I pushed outside of my comfort zone. So, the first thing on my agenda was to sign up for an RX CrossFit Competition (Shout-out to the hot judge from the Blizzard Bowl for having to watch me suffer throughout the whole competition). EVERYONE thought I was crazy, and when I look back at it, it probably was a rookie mistake, but hey a wise person once said “if your dreams don’t scare you, they’re not big enough!” so dream I did…

It was November 2015 and the competition was January 22, 2016. I had about two months to crunch in A TON of work, but I did the work. I went to the gym nearly every day. I remember doing my first ever ‘Grace’ (30 clean and jerks for time) with Johnny and Adam watching. It was with 65 pounds and it took me about 6 minutes. The most I could clean was 75 pounds, but by Christmas Day I was able to clean 85 pounds. By the time the competition came around I could string together SEVEN hang cleans at 95 pounds, it was a Christmas miracle for me.

During the competition I got my butt whooped. It was way out of my league and at the time I felt completely embarrassed for even trying. As I sit and reflect now, it was probably one of the best things I’ve ever done, because at the end of the day I got a taste of what it feels like to get better and that was all that I needed to continue on.

Since my first CrossFit competition, I have competed in 3 more CrossFit competitions, became a Certified L-1 CrossFit Coach, ran two half marathons, coached numerous bootcamps and can front squat 180lbs (yes, using a barbell) – all if which I had never dreamed of doing in my life.

I felt compelled to share this because I wasn’t in love with CrossFit the second I started. I wasn’t in love with CrossFit the first 3 years I started. It was hard for me. It took me hitting my breaking point and pushing myself outside of my comfort zone to find a love for bettering myself and CrossFit so happens to make me better. I now get excited for workouts with a barbell. I am scared, but being scared is kind of what makes it fun for me. I get a rush when I can accomplish something that I didn’t think I could.

So whatever it is that makes you better…DO THAT! Remember to be patient and to just pick up the damn barbell, you never know what can happen!


XOXO – Biz



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